Friday, May 22, 2009

Turning Around

I am at a fork in the road as of today. You see for so long I have sat back and hoped that everything would fall into place and have relied on everything to happen around me. But for the last week I have been hanging out with the people that have been placed here for me. Seeing what was put in front is good evidence to just keep on pursuing life as I am and that it will fall into place. I went camping recently and succumbed to peer pressure (I guess you could say that) and wound up having a really good night and met some new people at the lake, one of which I wanted to do some dirty things to. While we were hanging out I realized that I had more fun going around trying new things and meeting new people and that I can also help others and would like to think that they enjoy me conversing with them. I can either keep going on the path that I am on and hope that everything just falls into place or I can wander off the beaten path and form one that I can look back and say, “Damn that was fun.” Of course changing my lifestyle will come with some growing pains and I will have to learn to deal with rejection, but I think that I have enough mental toughness to get over it and meet others. (Besides I can just look back and quote my good friend, “Bitches be crazy so just fuck it.”) I think that in the long run that I will enjoy it more and can finally figure this college thing out that has plagued me for the last two years. Even though the path that I am on will require almost zero effort I want to work towards a decade that I can look back and say, “How am I going to top that?”